I am still here, still doing ok, and still committed to writing in this blog. I have not run for several days, but i have stayed on the abstinence plan. I celebrated 4 weeks of cleansing on the 4th with a nice bottle of tap water! Without thinking about the larger context, i ate a chocolate covered coffee bean in Giant. It was awesome, but after 4 weeks with no caffeine or coffee – it took about 3 seconds before i REALLY wanted a smoke.
I am currently working on a few different, hopefully brief, personal writing projects offline that i will bring here when they are a little more advanced. {Current difficulties with the running/exercise, why i hate the holidays, the general anxiety/dread/discomfort i feel related to impending life changes, the golf basics project, and a political mash-up (voting, the state of public discourse, the “discussion” about health care reform, taxes, government spending, and more!) that will take a while to untangle into manageable chunks.}
I also still have a lot of my least favorite kind of writing to do for work (corporate re-branding) involving my least favorite professional subject matter and format (me, my career, the resume, and the short form narrative bio).
I have made some good progress, but i need a few more hours of dedicated but undirected writing to get more of the broad strokes down. I will also need another brainstorming session and review of my notes and emails to jog my memory and capture some critical past events and projects. (For example, i forgot all about developing a TV show in India, and writing and doing the voice-overs for commercials/promotional videos in Doha and India until a short work session this morning.) Then i have to craft that mess into sections and sift and evaluate. What should go on the website to describe capability? What should go into the projects archive? And the challenge for long-winded bastards like me, The One Pagers!! What gets cut from the narrative bio? How to mash all this crap into something attractive for a resume?
I will get there – but i hate this. The last time i was even asked to submit a resume to get a job was at Borders in 1998 (maybe 99 – i am no good at historical time-lines), so this is not a simple update. It is really hard to figure out how truthful to be also. I don’t mean “should i embellish”? I mean “should i leave most of this out”? Will people hire a dude who has been largely self-employed for 11 years, who founded/or co-founded six companies on three continents, who is still the CEO of three of those, and a Senior Partner in another? But who only has a BA (technically three, but no one really cares about that) and is not in a higher ed program currently?
Enough. I gotta do some head clearing with the books or the tube for a bit and sleep.
I did golf today. The first time i played 18 holes in a long while. I did many things that i have been working on quite well, but i could not put it/keep it all together to avoid a few of the big numbers. After 7 holes, i was feeling good and thought, “i will break 90 again today”. But i carded a 101/98 (there was no one out there and i played 2 balls on two holes). My best score ever is still an 82, and i did not think i would beat that, but i feel like i should be breaking 90 much more often.
More practice required…